This cosmic sea In front of me Awaiting my calamity For as they say I now have learned The abyss' gaze is beyond words And wish I may And wish I might But wishing never can suffice So here I lay In empty space Awaiting my fate Lost, this darkened universe it seems Has taken hold Hold of me To any form of life outside Please find me Set me free Constant night through the windows bleed Accepting death I bend my knee The stars from distant past ahead of me Forsaken me As he approaches me The sun rises beyond the moon Shining bright light on my new tomb On my new womb Shifting my eyes to this great sight I fear my mortal self ends soon Dear God, if you exist Then please just get it over with And save me from this cell (this hell) Of endless empty space Like an infant I'm helpless And need your arms around me Just show me that you're there And prove that I've been wrong about you Because in man's most desperate times He disregards his past set of mind I'm not strong willed like I have lied And like all men I'm afraid to die I am but a termite to These giants of aeons past Drifting amongst their careless abode An alien to their cosmic home Darkness surrounds in this chapel This chapel of scorn If this is to be my future I wish to be unborn No one to say goodbye to Black future holds me now Yet what is this that makes me heart feel So numb? Cradled in this neon speckled space I stare an essence in the face Forgotten in these empty times I've opened my eyes Gone, I can't feel man's presence on me All alone in my new tomb You and I have known each other long Yet only now do I see What plans you have for me I am not sure But this I know: Gone are days when others matter here You make me feel born again His sun rises beyond the moon Shining bright light on my new tomb On my new womb Shifting my eyes to this great sight I fear my mortal self ends soon Please take me home In this dark and lonesome place I stare God right in the face And fear the void inside My mortal being I know what it is to be a man But tell me does he understand When I beg and cry Please don't let me die